Dating isn't for the light-hearted

I'm trying not to let this blog turn into a "Dis on Dating" even if it does seem like it might be that way. So last night I had another date. And no, it wasn't with "Oscar" as I'm going to call him now (as in Oscar the grouch). No this guy seemed really great. We'll call him "Harvey." (Harvey Dent, Harvey Two-Faced...)

So I get into the city and meet him at the restaurant. The conversation was a LOT better than the night before! We eased from one conversation to another. If I tried to explain it, you'd say to me: "Rosie, this sounds just like your date 'Oscar'." And yes, from the outside and just giving the basics, it would seem like the same. So why was this dinner conversation with 'Harvey' better? I guess it was just his personality. He didn't make it seem like an interrogation. Then the check came. He not only wouldn't let me pay, he wouldn't even let me see the check. Such a nice change! We walked to his car where he drove us to the theatre. Again, he wouldn't let me pay. All this sounds great, right? Yeah well this is when it goes downhill.

So the movie is about to start and he pulls the ole "yawn, stretch, put his arm around." That's not so bad except he practically forced me to sit in his lap!!! OH EM GEE!!! Yeah and then he starts like rubbing up and down on my arms--for a good 30 minutes!! Every time I tried to "stretch" (a.k.a. pull away) he would pull me back and ask if I was scared. We were watching Immortals so--no. No, I wasn't scared. I was finally able to pull away and sit in my own seat, but the rest of the movie I was like a board. I didn't move a muscle for the next HOUR! Man, I was starting to think this guy had potential. But this... It's one thing to try and hold my hand on the first date. That's an acceptable attempt at contact. I would have still NOT, but at least that's an understandable and even respectable attempt. To make someone YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW utterly and completely uncomfortable... 

So now, back to square one. I have 28 days left with this online dating thing. If you were to ask me right now if I would sign on for another 3 months, I'd give you an emphatic NO. I know people look at me and think "You're still so young. You don't need to fret over finding someone right now." But the fact is I honestly feel like I have achieved most every professional goal I've set for myself. I never had any TRUE career ambitions. I studied things that interested me because they interested me. If the cards would have fallen in a way that I could have continued on in my field AND had a family, I might have stayed in it. But the fact is my personal goals have ALWAYS outranked my professional ones. Since I was four years old I have known I wanted to be a mother. Every "career" decision I made was with that in mind. Being a mom is 100, a 1000 times more important to me than being a successful business woman. I guess that's why most new-age feminists I meet hate me! lol

Please send me prayers, condolences, laughter (at my predicament)... lol I'm definitely going to need them these next 4 weeks!