It's not what you think!!
I am soooo happy right now. Words are kind of a poor substitute when I think about trying to describe how happy I am. And it's nothing grandiose or "out of this world" or anything like that. It's a very simple thing:
I found someone I really like who likes me back!
Crazy how that works, huh? lol
This guy. Well I've known him almost two years now. He's a friend of a friend. We hung out a few times over the years but never really paid too much attention to each other. Okay, that's a lie. My jaw dropped when I first met him. I thought: "GAWD he's hott!" And he was helping my mom out without complaining or being forced to. So he was a generally good guy too. Holy mackerel, no way. But then I heard he had a girlfriend so I dropped it and never really thought about it again. Not really anyways.
Fast forward to today. He's not with her anymore and suddenly things are looking good. I hang out with him a few times as friends. Nothing terrible, nothing romantic. Just friends with friends, hanging out, having fun. Being silly. But there's like this tangible "thing;" I can feel it. I didn't want to say anything because I was terrified I was wrong and he was just a cool guy who was nice to everyone. (Trust me, I've gotten it REALLY WRONG a few times. Enough to take a couple of steps back and really think about what I'm thinking I'm seeing.)
Welp...I wasn't wrong!! We've only been "talking" for a few days now but man do I like him. I first "date" was to work out together at the gym. I figured if he liked me in basic gym clothes and no make-up...and wouldn't try to show off to the point where I felt puny, then I'd give it a go. He did so much better than I was hoping for!! Later I made us pizza from scratch. We watched movies. Ate ice cream. Walked around a lake at night. (That's all the same day! lol)
Then we went to a movie together. We didn't want to leave each other's company so we went and got some food. And then, the next day, even though we were both so tired from working a 10 hour day, we still were willing to keep ourselves up and hang out and watch TV! Luckily we both came to our senses and realized we had to go to sleep; it was way more important than 30 minutes to an hour of hanging out.
Tonight though. Tonight was a great night. Because tonight he said the "B-Word." I had vented to him about how crappy my day was. He had vented about his day. Amazingly enough, as bad as today was and as bad as I wanted to just call everyone out and be really mean about work; I didn't want to lay it out on his shoulders. As soon as I realized I *COULD* vent to someone who would honestly listen and was okay with that; well I didn't want to drag him down with it. Just knowing I could made me feel so much better. Then!! Then he casually asked if my dad would read him the riot act when I introduce my dad to my "boyfriend." Again....absolutely NOTHING over-the-top about it. It was natural and easy.
Signing off:
A very contented lady!
