It's been a while since my last post. It's not that there's been a lot of amazing things going on or distressing things...There's just been a lot of things. I've started selling make up to kind of help subsidize my income. That's taking up a lot of my time because there's a meeting every Tuesday. So I have to go to work all day, rush home and get dressed up in business attire, and go to this meeting for almost 2 hours. Nowadays though, I'm not learning anything new because the other girls in my group are bringing guests EVERY WEEK to be models and they don't speak English so the whole two hours is spent listening to a language I can't speak and not learning. It's pointless now. I tried bringing it up to my Director but she blew it off. Made me realize where I stand. So I'm going to finish up my commitment with them in 2 weeks (I've promised to take Holiday pictures of the models for a fee); then I won't be returning to the meetings. Decision Made.
Then there's the fact that I am still single. Ever since I graduated (way back in 2009), I've been saying how I want to settle down. Find a good person and start a life with them. I've tried asking my friends to set me up but that never seems to work out. Either my friends find guys who are in relationships and they didn't know it, or they find guys who have nothing to offer someone else and no ambition to be or do more in life, or the guys end up bailing on the group events at the last second--in which case, they aren't somebody I could trust anyways. So that hasn't worked out. Then there would be the times I would go to clubs and what not with my girls and think: "Maybe I'll find someone here." But honestly, I'm not a party-girl or a clubber. So every guy I met at those places is not someone I had anything in common with. I don't really drink and at clubs you tend to meet drunken, slovenly jerks. Not all the time, obviously. But if you aren't someone who even remotely enjoys "the scene," then you won't meet someone worth spending your time with in those situations. So I recently went and joined an online dating site. I even went ahead and paid for three months. Ironically enough, my membership will end on January 1, 2012...how's that for ringing in the new year, resolutions, and what not? Pretty cool I thought. So I am actively participating in this. I am putting the same effort and time into searching on this site as I would into dating someone. Because, let's face it, if you aren't willing to put the time into finding someone worthy, you won't put enough time into keeping the relationship going--in a healthy manner. So: Decision Made!
Then there's this whole book club thing. For almost a year now I was part of a "book & wine club." The problem is: I was almost always the only person who read the book and wanted to talk about it!! Every other person would show up on occasion, and drink the wine, and normally say they hadn't gotten around to reading the book yet. It would be one thing if we were doing the book club a lot, but we don't! That's the other thing. We initially talked about doing a book every 6 weeks. That turned into 8, turned into 3 months...etc. We've met or tried to meet 4 times already for the same book: The Help, and we started that book WAY BEFORE we even knew it was going to be a movie! That's how long this has taken. Then we set up to meet on Nov 5th to talk about that book and another book and set up the book to talk about after that...and now THAT's fallen through! It's almost not worth the headache or rearranging my schedule and making sure I read the book (or freshen up on it) so I can talk about it. So...I've decided to start a BOOK SWAP!! It's kinda like a Book Club meets the "Purse Swap" that's really popular right now. Basically, I'll get some friends together one evening a month. We'll bring a list of books we've read recently and enjoyed and think others will enjoy as well. We talk about them and if anyone is interested, you can "swap book" until the next event. Like a library, but you get honest opinions right there too. Plus, I have this problem with buying books because people recommend them and I can't always get them at the library. This should really cut back on the $$ I spend in the book sections at my favorite stores! (Always a plus.) One of the great things about this is you don't have to commit to showing up every time, you don't have to have read "the book" or worry about what others will think of your opinion on it; you just bring your list, let people choose one or two if they want, set up a time to get them the books and when to return them--you can even do this at the events! I'm going to run it by some girls I work with and see if they'd even be interested. But, really: DECISION MADE!
I am really working on completing things on my To Do Lists, making time for everything I want to do while still taking care of myself. I am making decisions that I honestly believe will make my life better, fuller, happier. Regardless of the opinion of others. Finally! :)
